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Juice Cleanse
02:37
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Our history – Hard trying to give up the ghost of it
When we should have been making the most of it
Hard to say no but I just can’t play host to it
A litany of crossing the thin lines
Late night pleading and sleep-deprived daytimes
Upset stomach from swallowing old lies
All torn up and having the worst time
Heart cracked to pieces, soul on fire
All torn up, not like it’s the first time
But this one caught me on my blind side
Here’s company – Not the kind I’d been clinging to hope for
Busy sealing up cracks in the floorboards
Didn’t bother to latch up the back door
Hey misery – Didn’t think that you’d bother to return
Step right in we’ve been keeping your bed warm
And leave your shoes on this place is a shit storm
All torn up and having the worst time
Heart cracked to pieces, soul on fire
All torn up, not like it’s the first time
But this one caught me on my blind side
Smile. Wave. Talk small. Stay brave
I know I look like shit but I’ll be fine
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2. |
Post Tour Depression
01:16
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Everything drifts away out there on the road
Trouble’s around but I’ll sort it out when I get back home
Two years off and three weeks on
Our window’s smashed, we just got robbed
Late nights, dumb fights, and every chance I’ve blown
Drowned in debt and overdrawn
I lost my partner, lost my job
It all meant nothing
It all means nothing
Everything drifts away out there on the road
Trouble’s around but I’ll sort it out when I get back home
Everything sinks away
I feel so alone
Trouble’s around but I’ll sort it out when I get back home
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3. |
The Ides
02:35
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Crash into my life
Waste my fucking time
Now I’m a fucking wreck
Knife square in my spine
You’re clear, I’m stuck
Smashed the whole thing all to pieces now I’m picking it up
My head, your plot
Rent free because I hate your motherfucking guts
Solid concrete crypt
All these slabs precast
I’m trying. I’m trying
To put you in the past
You’re clear, I’m stuck
Smashed the whole thing all to pieces now I’m picking it up
My head, your plot
Rent free because I hate your motherfucking guts
So smug, so sure
You retched, deep lore
It’s fair in love if it’s fair in war
Please take the time, to clear your mind
While I swallow fucking poison, and wait for you to die
If I ever see you again it’s gonna be too fucking soon
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4. |
Egg Sucking Dog
01:54
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Get out. Get the fuck out
It’s not safe anymore
Consecrated then negated
Sight blacked out with deception and hatred
Left hanging heavy in the air without an answer
Insecurities feeding on fear like cancer
Had I known I’d have done everything different
Had I known I could just have walked away
Had I known I would choose a new direction
Had I known
Shut up. Shut the fuck up
I can’t take anymore
Lamentations, explanations
Shameless excuses and manipulation
The fields are fertile from the shit you’ve spread around
If you don’t wind up in a hospital, it’s because I’m in the ground
Had I known I’d have done everything different
Had I known I could just have walked away
Had I known I would choose a new direction
Had I known
Sorry to hear again this year there’ll be no happy endings
Can’t really say I wish you well
So call up your friends and have them bring along their best intentions
And you can pave your way to hell
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5. |
Through The Teeth
03:20
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Can I be kind enough to kill you
Bite my tongue off so I don’t say
The things I wish that I could tell you
Trauma I wish I could repay
Take it away
You’ve taken everything from me
Take it away
Take it away
You’re so unkind, but would it kill you to wipe that smug look off your face
You’d think after everything we’ve been through, you’d find a shred of decency
Take it away
You’ve taken everything from me
Take it away
You’ve taken everything from me
Take it away
You’ve taken everything from me
Take it away
Take it away
Tear every single scrap of flesh from off my bones until I’m nothing
Grind me into dust
Scatter my ashes on the wind so I can never live again
Leave nothing left to reconstruct
Leave me a casualty of
Idle hands
Idle time
Idle threats
Idle minds
Idle hands
Idle time
Idle threats
Idle minds
Take it away
You’ve taken everything from me
Take it away
You’ve taken everything from me
Take it away you’ve taken everything from me
Take it away
Take it away
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6. |
Jumping The Broom
01:43
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Ride or die until the wheels fall off
Now and forever
Gracious and judicious from the start
Never jaded, never hesitated
Never say never
Careful, the safety’s off so slow the fuck down
Small indiscretions
So what do we do now at intermission
We’ve gotta fight to keep it all together
Fight not to get pulled apart
Try to put it back together
Try before I fall apart
Fight to keep it all together
Fight not to get pulled apart
Try to put it back together
Try before I fall apart
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7. |
Salt & Sand
01:34
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I’m overthinking and it’s sinking in
Trapped in a memory that I can never change
Like that one story about a man who turned to stone until he forgave everything
Holding onto, onto nothing
Breathe in deep and spit it out
Holding onto, onto nothing
The clock is running out
Someone once told me
Exoneration must be given freely, it can’t be bought or earned
Now I’m inspired to put an end to my own misery and forgive everything
Holding onto, onto nothing
Breathe in deep and spit it out
Holding onto, onto nothing
The clock is running out
Time, time, time
Running short on time
Time, time, time
Bleeding time
Forgiven, forgiven, forgiven
You’re forgiven
Forgiven, forgiven,
Resentment’s self-defeating
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8. |
Holding Pattern
02:00
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It’s just the worst time
Mouth full of land mines
Hastily chosen
It’s not a safe bet
This is a bomb threat
That’s why I’m locked up tight and frozen
Choking on the truth
I’m strangled here with you
It comes out all wrong
Say I tried, but I let it slide and never said it
I don’t have the guts it takes to talk to you
So chalk it up to misfires and miscues
And a lack of patience
And we’ll pretend that it’s out of respect for delivery and cadence
Choking on the truth
I’m strangled here with you
And it’s gone on so long
Say I tried, but I let it slide and never said it
I don’t have the guts it takes to talk to you
I don’t have the nerve it takes to speak the truth
And I don’t think I’ll ever get it back
Misdirected and disconnected
And all in all, I die when I’m with you
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9. |
Concentric
01:36
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Anger and pressure
So volatile together
Experiences carved into deep lines
But I’m trying to leave it all behind
And redefine and heal these wounds
Because in the end it’s just another story
What’s past is passed, what’s true is true
In the end it’s just another story
I’ll live the narrative I choose
Redefine me – without the wreckage
Redefine me – push through the pain
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10. |
Moonstones
01:55
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So let down
Things all went wrong and now we’re moving
Hearts torn out
Bloody and raw from all we lost
A promise is a promise
Forever means forever
Blind to how
Unchanged directions might destroy truth
Can’t change now
Why did we wait until too late
A promise is a promise
Forever means forever
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11. |
Pennies
02:01
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Precious seconds
Clumsy words
Cloudy vision
Self-saboteur
Little losses, irrational sense of failure
I know this fear of letting go is only natural
But right now, it feels like I’ve got no control
Shallow breathing
Fits and starts
Fighting spirits
Wounded hearts
Little movements, intentional and calculated
I know this fear of letting go is only natural
But right now, I feel like, I feel like I’ve got no control
When you truly add them up
Every penny, every thought
There’s a chance to see a spot to expire and self-destruct
When you truly add them up
Every penny, every thought
You may not see what you’ve got
But the truth is, you’re enough
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12. |
Slices
01:28
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Is what it is, was what it was and other platitudes
Carved out some time, looked long and hard
Shifted my attitude
Shut off the spite, worked through the shame
Make space for gratitude
Summer’s not gone, so I’m sailing on
I’ve got no time to lose
Starting over, ever forward
Bitter trails? Been there and gone
Thresholds tested, and reordered
Un-collapsed I’m moving on
The motivation to walk that line
In an affirmation
I’ve said it before, but I’ll say it again
One more time. I feel fine
It’s looking better, so what’s next
This time I’m ready for ya
And I won’t get wrecked
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Dug through a few important pieces
To find you laying on the ground
Flattened you out but left some creases
Hung you back up where you fell down
Sterilized needles and some thread to mend
Stitches and seams that got torn out
Soaking in caustic lye and bleach pens
These stains are never coming out
No matter where we go, I’ll wear you out
No matter where we go, I’ll wear you out
And every day you’re on display
That one thing they all talk about
No matter where we go
I’ll put you on, I’ll put you on
I’ll wear you out
I’ll put you on, I’ll put you on
I’ll wear you out
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14. |
Rebuilding Year
02:30
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Time to forgive stormy weather
Make a shift for the better
Taking stock of everything I own
Begin again. Feeling clearer
Know the face in the mirror
Know the truth, see what’s possible
Disengage
Settle down and step back
Reflect and respond with a brighter vision
Can’t change the world if I don’t start with myself
Give it everything and jump back in
Transformation – finding purpose
Letting go of feeling nervous
Setting goals and finding discipline
Through thick and thin – stay together
Fortify, come whatever
Rooted deep with the ones I love
Disengage
Settle down and step back
Reflect and respond with a brighter vision
Can’t change the world if I don’t start with myself
Give it everything and jump back in
You get back what you put in
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